January 2011
11 posts
1/31
bleh, today’s annoying. i’ve been sick in bed, throwing up all day. lame. which means i’ve been overthinking stuff. like, i really miss glenn, but i know for a fact he doesn’t miss me. some “being zen” bullshit. i mean, he’s being awesome, especially compared to last semester, but still. i really want things to work out with that this summer.
also i lost...
d'awwwww
music.
yesterday i was talking to nibha and we were making fun of those stupid people who say stuff like “music is my life” and so on. but really, thank god for music. i would go absolutely crazy without it. it’s kinda funny, actually. my feelings about life have brightened considerably ever since my dad bought me an ipod shuffle. i’m able to go for walks around boston listening...
happiness is a choice. my choice.
feelings i want, in images.
love. good old fashioned love.
feeling amazing, invincible, with friends. fucking around, in the most epic ways possible.
just going. driving long stretches alone is when i feel most content within myself. i like the open sky above me, and the open road in front of me. it relaxes me.
today i was walking back to northeastern from downtown. i was by myself, and i was listening to music....
huh
weird couple of days. wednesday was our first snow day!! it was so cool and pretty and exciting and lovely. my friends and i all went to play in it, then when we got tired and cold we came inside and watched silly tv shows. it was nice. thing is, that night pat and his roommate came over to drink with us, and we all got written up. which was scary, since none of us were buzzed enough to lighten...
back at school
feels pretty good i guess. a little strange. but there’s snow on the ground and it’s really cute. it’s like out of a book. last night my friends and i were telling each other about our breaks, and it made me miss glenn. like, a lot. bleh. can i ever just be unattached?! i guess there are worse things than missing someone, especially if you know they care about you. he sent me a...
mmm.
too many feelings. right now some of them are good, a lot are bad, some are actually both. my heart hurts. it misses everyone. even jonathan. whaat. i dont know what’s going on with me. sometimes i feel so safe, so stable. then, just minutes later, i feel like i’m losing control of everything. i don’t know what i want. i want to go back to school, and i dont. i want to stay here,...
damn
fucking awesome day yesterday. woke up to catch the train to visit glenn and the train ride itself was amazing. everything was beautiful. pulling out of the station, we went over a bridge and the view was completely obscured by fog except for the inches of metal bridge in front of us. it was awesome. then, as i crossed over the cosway, i watched the sunrise. fucking beautiful. then, just seeing...
gosh.
what a roller coaster this break is. i go between being really happy [mostly when i’m with friends], really really fucking sad, and just kinda numb. oh and passed out drunk. haha. but… yeah. new years eve was interesting. got totally shitfaced, which was fun until i found myself laying on the ground in my backyard, throwing up and sobbing. awk… after which i dragged myself back...