December 2011
4 posts
i'm scared.
i’m scared of my whole life ahead of me. i don’t know if i can be a functional person in society or in a relationship. i don’t think it’s fair of me to be in a relationship, to the other person. i’m neurotic and depressed most of the time, and i often put that on the other person. and i dont think that’s dependent on who i am with, i think that’s me. i...
something to remember when i’m depressed: there are lots of people who need me. not need, but want me in their lives, want me to be around. it might be easier for me if i killed myself, but it would make a lot of people unhappy. it’s not worth it in the slightest.
i don’t really know what i’m feeling, what i’ve been feeling, or how i’m going to feel next...
so i’m bored of studying microeconomics so i guess i’l write some stuff. i was right about thanksgiving break- it definitely reassured me that i have nothing to worry about with glenn. it was really nice. i kinda wish i had written about this earlier, because i’m sort of starting to creep back into the doubt. but i’m trying to hold on to the memories i have, and the hope...
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