okay.
so i’m going to do this; write about stuff. i miss glenn a lot. it hurts, and it’s hard. our last day together was… i dont know. it was shitty because i was doing stuff for my lost wallet, and because it was our last day. but it was also nice. i dont know, it was hard. i cried a lot. we had sex one last time and i was really really sad after. when we were outside by his car before he was driving away i wanted to stay. i really didnt want to go. i knew i had to, but it just really sucked. and now i miss him a lot. he’s not that great at texting so i always think he’s bored or annoyed of me, and i really read into it when he takes a long time to reply. and i always have to text first. and i always ask to talk. its easy to make myself think it’s one sided, even if logically i know it’s not. but ugh. i know he loves me, but i’m really scared he’s going to forget how he feels about me if we’re not seeing each other regularly. i mean, last semester, he said he didnt even know if he liked me, because its different when we dont see each other. how can i not be scared? it’s just really great when we are together. like, really great. and things aren’t bad here. it’s just, when you have something that great, it’s hard to go back to just good. it feels like something is missing. it’s dumb, it really is, i just really need to be able to hear “i love you” every day. bleh. it’s really shitty missing someone this much.
