so i’m in santa cruz on coop and i really like it here. like fuck. i’m trying really hard to live day by day and sometimes thats easier than others. but its really hard not to think about how much fall is going to fucking suck. sometimes if i’m left alone with my thoughts, i think i’d rather kill myself than go back to boston. why the fuck did i leave california? i must be an idiot. but there’s nothing really i can do about it now. transfering isn’t really an option because of timing with housing and everything. so i guess i just have to make the most of this experience while it’s here, then get out of boston in as little time as possible.
things with glenn are fantastic. with school he’s obviously busier than me and shit so sometimes he cant hang out and i’m kinda bored (which leads to me thinking about the shit in the paragraph above) but i really couldn’t think of a better place to be bored.
i really like my internship, i think. sometimes i have to do pretty slow boring excel work, but when i get to interact with my coworkers and board members it’d pretty cool. and, come march, i’ll be doing way more fun stuff. plus the location is fantastic. it would be cool to get a part time job that would pay me, but honestly i’m getting by. this isn’t just about work. thsi is my break from boston, and i’m not about to sacrifice my weekends/the only time i’d get to see my boyfriend some weeks.
anyway yeah. that’s what’s new.
